The Moaning After

“How’s it going, little man?” Janine whispered, turning the blinds shut. She had long ago made a game of memorizing the creaky spots in the floorboards and could pad through the apartment nearly silently.

Shaun surely appreciated this skill today, as his head was pounding. “You can’t let me drink that much, oh my lover,” he moaned. He didn’t even make a dent in his girlfriend’s pillow.

She spun gracefully upon the ball of her bare foot, and the mattress sighed heavily as her hips sank into its edge. “It’s impossible for me to tell how much you’re getting, buddy. Sometimes you can handle one full drop from the eye dropper, sometimes that’s too much.” She leaned over her tiny boyfriend with tender care, her forearms framing him on the pillow. “Did you have enough to eat beforehand?”

“Fats and proteins… like always… A crumb of sharp cheddar and a shred of beef stick. I don’t know what went wrong.” One spindly arm rested dramatically across his brow; otherwise he was motionless.

Janine tsk-tsked at the crumpled little guy. Sunlight struck the nightstand in thin beams, sharing enough ambient light to cast him and the bed in a rosy glow. But even with this hue, he managed to look sickly and wan. She asked if he needed an aspirin or ibuprofen; he assured her that he could use a coffee, once the room stopped spinning.

She leaned on her elbows and lowered her head down, sniffing at him gently to see if he’d puked in the night. “What was the occasion, anyway?”

Slowly his head and forearm rolled back and forth. “No reason. Just… wanted to cut loose. I had a little and it felt good, and I wanted more to feel better.” His tiny chest rose with a long inhale, which he held for half a minute before letting it hiss out. “I can’t do that, it’s too unpredictable… If I’d known…”

Her long fingers ran so gently over his pajama bottoms, sensing his kneecaps and shins beneath the soft fabric. “Do you remember what you said to me last night?”

There was a long pause, then Shaun’s arm fell to his side. “Oh, fuck,” he groaned. His eyes were wide as they stared at the ceiling. “Please, no, no, no…”

She grinned gently at him. “It’s okay, I knew you were drunk. I didn’t take it seriously.”

His eyes rolled to hers, so dryly she could almost hear them grinding in their sockets. “Oh, Janine, I’m so sorry. Whatever I said, it wasn’t true, please believe that. If I was offensive and stupid, please, it doesn’t reflect how I really feel. I need you to trust that. Booze doesn’t unlock any doors in me.”

“So you don’t really love me?”

“Did I say I loved you?”

The tip of her tongue briefly stroked her upper lip. “It’s all you could talk about for, like, an hour. I kept trying to change the subject and you’d bring it right back.” The fingertip of her index finger smoothed out his superfine hair. “You were even belligerent! You yelled at me for not letting you adequately express your love for me,” she said, giggling.

His tiny chest rose and fell slowly. “Well, at least that’s true.”

“You made up a song, do you remember it?”

“A song?” His face strained with recollection.

“I have a video of it. Do you want to see it?”

He moaned. “I absolutely do not.”

“Good, here you go.” Janine shifted to one hip and dug out her smartphone, unlocked it, and called up the video file. Shaun tried to turn away, but at hearing himself he was compelled to witness the spectacle as she held the phone on the pillow.

In the video, Shaun was standing on the dining room table, on an over-sized postcard of junk mail. He was jabbing his finger with wide gestures at something just above the camera. “−who’d fuckin’ die for the kinda love I’m givin’ you! You know that? They’d fuckin’ die for it!” He ran his palms over his starchy dress shirt. “All this love, so much fuckin’ love in this tiny li’l body… all for you… an’ you don’ even wanna hear about it.”

“I know you love me,” said Janine’s off-camera voice. The treble in her tone indicated she was smiling broadly. “I just wanted to know if you had anything else to say.”

Drunken Shaun partially lost his balance, the slick postcard for lawn care skidding beneath his stance, but he recovered. He glared in exaggerated disbelief at the wielder of the camera. “Other than how much I fuckin’ love you? Yer a piece o’ work. I don’ ba-leeve this. I got so much love for you, and you’re all… pfft! Pfft!” His hands flew up sharply in a show of dismissal.

On the pillow, Shaun’s minuscule fingers covered his tiny mouth in horror. “I am… so sorry,” he started to say, but real-life Janine hushed him.

“Why don’t you show me how much you love me, then?” Digital Janine’s voice was playfully challenging. She was curious to see where this could go, if he wanted to embarrass himself so badly.

The tiny little sot took a moment to focus on her, off-camera, then to stare at the phone itself. “Okay, I will. Easy!” he shouted. “Whaddya wan’ me to do?”

“Uh-uh, my sweet pet. You have to come up with something on your own.”

“Fine!” He folded his arms and wobbled slightly for a few moments. When he spoke up again, he burst into the tune of Violent Femmes’s “Blister in the Sun.”

I love Janine / She’s super keen / And she’s fuckin’ tall
I’m tall as her foot / I’m super cute / And that is not all

Lemme go cra-a-a-awl like a mouse between your tits
Lemme go cra-a-a-awl, I promise you won’t feel it

When she sits down / She sits around / And she covers me
I’m stuck in her crack / Wedged in the back / Her butt is all I can see

Lemme go cra-a-a-awl like a mouse between your tits
Lemme go cra-a-a-awl, I swear you won’t feel it

The Shaun on the smartphone screen then vocalized a guitar solo and launched into some dance moves: timed kicks, shimmying shoulders, low-swinging hands and finger snapping. As ferocious as he’d been a minute before, his face was positively radiant with hilarity now. The view zoomed in as he bit his bottom lip and ducked his head in time to his own music, before digital Janine exploded in laughter and the camera zagged awry.

Real-life Janine was also cracking up, trying to stifle it for her hungover lover’s sake. She let the phone slide to the bed and leaned back, palms clasped over her mouth as she shook. Diminutive Shaun only rocked with the pillow, his face as livid as though he were ready to die on the spot.

“Oh, my sweet little lover-man,” Janine said after recovering a bit. She scooped him up gently in her palms and cradled him against her chest. “Oh, my sweet little rockstar! No, don’t be embarrassed! You were wonderful! I wish you’d do that more often!”

Shaun only allowed himself to tumble in her clasping hands, suffering to slump against her warm shirt. “Lemme go play with the dog next door,” he mewled. “The yappy one that chews on everything.”

“Oh, no, no, no! I can’t let my little rockstar get away from me!” She grinned down at him, her torso slowly turning back and forth. “You belong to nobody but me! Nothing but private concerts and limited engagements.”

“You want me to dance for nickels?” His voice was muffled in her shirt.

“You’ll dance for kisses, my sweet song-and-dance man.” She lifted the tiny man up to her face, in front of her broad smile. “And then afterward… you have to deal with your horny, overly enthusiastic groupie. Got it?”

Propping himself up on one elbow, one bare shoulder peeking from the neck of his pajama shirt, Shaun grinned up at her from her palm. “Your, uh, rockstar needs a little downtime, but that sounds−” He was interrupted by a chime from her phone.

Janine turned her phone over, tapped out her code, and smiled at the message. “Looks like Kristi liked−” She cut herself off. Her smile disappeared and her eyes went huge.

Shaun blanched. “You… did not… show that… to your friends. Tell me you didn’t.”

“Only Kristi, I swear.”

Then her phone went off again. And again.

Photo by Yura Fresh on Unsplash

6 thoughts on “The Moaning After

  1. That’s ridiculously cute. The only lyrics I can remember when I’m that drunk are by Weird Al (still waiting for his love ballad to Nancy Archer).

    Janine seems awfully comfortable sharing the…logistical details of her sex life with her friend(s).

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    1. Those gigantic girlfriends probably share lots of secrets and personal information. Some of them have little guys, some are on the fence about picking up a couple and need to be shown the light. Maybe now Janine will realize she’s probably sharing too much, if not now then the next time her friends show up for drinks.

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  2. This is so charming a scene in the life of Janine and Shaun. Every time I read and write their names, I’m glad you changed them, Shaun’s name most notable. I’ve only experienced three hangovers in my entire life, but I can relate to what Shaun is going through.

    Details I loved: 1. The way Janine knows what floorboards on the floor are to be avoided. As a mom, I know the same thing. That’s something you only bother to real for someone you truly love. It’s wonderful to see that a tiny man is treated with this amount of caring and respect. It renews my faith in people that don’t exist.

    That detail of having her come close to him, having her sniff at him, just to be able to tell if he’d soiled himself, is a wonderful illustration of his size. When someone pukes in a bedroom, there’s no escaping the smell… but when a tiny person does it one has to go that extra step to find our exactly the measure of soil on his clothes. Very nice.
    I wish Janine had captured the entire hour of love expression on her phone. But the made-up song was great. It’s something I do myself all the time to express how I feel about different aspects of my imagined life with my little one. I both write my own songs, and replace lyrics in existing ones. I love the Violent Femmes song, one I thought my son early on in his life.
    Janine says things that are very close to my heart, that represent exactly how I feel about these things, about that shrunken man. It’s always extremely pleasant to see those thoughts replicated here, in your writings. My own little guy belongs to no one but me, and his care when sick, is only extended to him by imaginary me.

    5. And of course, the hilarious ending. Now Shaun’s gone viral (it’s what I imagine – not only “Kristi”, but the snowballing amount of people that will meme Shaun into the web-o-sphere). Only fitting for someone so tiny. I can only imagine how it will go when Janine takes him out, and people spot him in her hold. “Hey, you’re that funny little drunk!” and singing back his own lyrics to him from passing cars… so fun.

    Janine was probably out of her mind with excitement about hearing the L word to stop and think about the consequences of showing her video to ONE friend. If she had been in a more calm state… but she is also a very trusting sort. I hope that changes soon.

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    1. Janine’s so deliriously in love with her charming little creature, better judgment often flees from her head like a flock of doves. She can only see the rest of the world as a container that might hold all the love she has for her little man. She forgets that not everyone has a tiny boyfriend, some people have never even met one, and even so, maybe one mightn’t distribute videos of their drunk suitor to less-discreet acquaintances.

      But on the other hand, yes, living with Shaun has taught Janine very much about her world, opened her up to vastly alternate perspectives. He’s not just a magical little being she’s feverishly in love with: he’s the key to an entirely other way of life. There is no existence without this, it’s beyond inconceivable.

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      1. Delirium of any kind and better judgment are a poor mix, unfortunately.
        That is such a thrilling idea: the notion of expanding your mind because of one person you meet, to the degree that you almost become someone else, a deeply expanded someone else you might have never met, had you stayed on your own, or had not crossed paths with this one seemingly insignificant person. I can’t wait to see how Janine will rise to the occasion every time she has to, and in loving a tiny man, she will often have to. What a great story.

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